| I Kill Him Anyway |
[26 Feb 2006|12:12pm] |
A very very special thanks to:
Melanie Raines
Rootin' Tootin' John Morris
Tom Da Bomb Morris
Matt Dooley
Drew Stipe
J.P. *inset last name*
Thank you all very much.
This would not have been possible without you.
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[23 Feb 2006|10:18pm] |
Weird night.
Weird thoughts actually.
I find myself searching for something to beleive in.
Anything to put faith into,
to pray to,
to help me.
I want to...
I want to so fucking badly.
I don't know why I can't.
I don't understand why it won't work for me.
I try.
I end up disapointed.
Depressed.
Why?
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| IM IN A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION! |
[21 Feb 2006|11:36pm] |
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 LANOLIN? |
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BAXTER? |
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I was truely brought to tears this evening.
I haven't stoped crying.
When you read the rest of this, you'll know why...
wannasemedisc0 (11:25:35 PM): FUCK ron burgandy
wannasemedisc0 (11:25:38 PM): yeah. i said it.
Steve88442 (11:25:59 PM): and i thought i knew you!
I'm so hurt.
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[13 Feb 2006|11:10pm] |
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You know...
Outside of anything theatre related..
Life is pretty fucking good.
If you took the theatre stress and bullshit out of my life,
I think I could actually begin to enjoy my senior year to its fullist.
Sad, isn't it?
The one thing that constantly brings me down are those two damn classes,
the two shows, and that sonofabitch who "directs" us.
Whatever.
As long as I view my life without theatre I'm happy camper.
Cheers!
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[07 Feb 2006|11:14pm] |
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a prayer.
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[30 Jan 2006|03:45pm] |
Um...
I got accepted the the University of South Carolina!
So this is pretty cool.
The whole actually going to college thing just sort of settled in.
Dunno if I'll go there or not.
Still have to hear from a few others.
This has been a good fucking day.
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[30 Jan 2006|07:48am] |
Ever wake up and wish the day had never made it here?
bah!
1. Don't want to go to school.
2. Don't want to go to rehearsal.
3. Want to see her.
4. Don't want to go to conference.
5. Want to go to conference to see opening number and IE's.
6. Want to go work out some more. (Release some more stress)
7. (Repeat #3)
The only thing that I'm really excited about, concerning extracuriclar activites at the school, would be the prom fashion show. February 16th.
Everyone should come to that and see Morris and I doing our thing.
The other night, Saturday night, was really fun.
Played Pay Day with Mel and then Cranium and Guesstures with her and her parents.
I could do that sort of shit every night and be a happy lad.
Well, off to escuela.
Fuck.
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[29 Jan 2006|10:21pm] |
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Goddamn motherfucking shit.
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[22 Jan 2006|10:09pm] |
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Umm...
Shit has been really fucking good lately.
Umm..
I really can't describe it in much detail.
I've been really happy.
She's fucking amazing.
I've got lines to learn.
I'm not as worried about them anymore.
For some odd reason I've discovered some confidence.
Dunno if it will last.
But its worth a try.
I'm waiting to hear back on a few more colleges.
I'm only really interested in 2.
I have okay chances with one school that I'm very nervous to hear back from.
And the other, well... I'm eager but not hopefull.. it's a real longshot.
There are some other ones but I could really careless about them at this point.
My mind is wanting acceptence from just these two..
I've got to get to fucking sleep tonight.
I've got a workout in the morning.
Chest and slight arms.
It's boring, but it's part of my life.
Oh yeah...
Thank you for making me smile.
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[11 Jan 2006|06:48pm] |
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Well.
The hunt is on for the mother fucker who wrote on my car.
In the words of Robert Rainer.
"Ima git whoever graffitied my car"
I have a few leads on who it may have been.
I've got about 3 major people I'm looking at.
Names will not be revealed to anyone.
Just know this graffitier, don't be supprised when there is poop on your car.
I'm bound to find out who you are.
I will show no mercy.
Even if you kindly reveal your identity to me and appologize it will still rain shit on your car.
*insert evil laugh*
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[10 Jan 2006|10:48pm] |
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Today was good.
Classes were boring, as usual.
Toamrow we get to start auditions for senior one acts.
That'll be fun.
I went to Mel's tonight.
We watched Clueless and talked and shit.
Good fun.
Good movie.
Then, I guess sometime during my time inside her room, some asshole thought it would be fun to draw a 1 <3 Penis thing on my window and the word Fag with a smiley face. They wrote in some sort of blue crayon, we think. Well, none the less, the crayon isn't coming off well and now my fingernails are blue.
A message for the one who wrote on my car... it's on mother fucker, it's on.
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[08 Jan 2006|08:23pm] |
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I won tickets on 99x today for The Strokes concert tomarow night.
I'm pretty excited.
I'm going with my brother so, it will be an interesting evening.
It's been ages since I've listened to them.
But I always love a concert, so it should be fun.
I'm locking in my Louisville trip tonight.
Im very very very fucking happy about this.
It's been so long since I've been back there.
I miss it so much.
There are certain things here though that I don't want to leave and will miss a lot...
I leave Friday after school and get home Monday morning.
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[07 Jan 2006|07:19pm] |
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I'm bored.
Physically exhausted.
Mentally exhausted.
Blah.
Thought I had plans tonight.
Turns out I don't.
I don't really want to do anything anymore now.
John and I did a lot of work on our movie last night.
We got about 2/3's of a script done, a rehearsal schedule, and interview/audtion shit done.
It's going to be a stressful next 3 months.
I'm going to be a wreck, I can feel it.
Im going to try stock up on sleep now while I can.
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[04 Jan 2006|03:01pm] |
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The ice in my teeth keep the crystal cold G-Unit homie, actin' like yall don't know.
Fuck the goddamn FSU football team for loosing last night.
I say goddamn!
I've never watched this much football in my whole life.
You University of Texas football playing mother-fuckers better win tonight.
I'm bringing my lucky hat, watching the game with my lucky girl, and watching in a lucky UT-loving home.
School starts tomarow and I'm not prepared for anything that I have to do or wanted to do before we go back.
I need to look over those damn monologues and read It Runs In The Family a couple more times and get to work on a few of those college essays and whatnot.
I think I may put on a movie, play some nigga-beats over the boom-box, and try to get a start on some of that bullshit.
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[28 Dec 2005|03:13pm] |
I feel shitty.
Fuck.
I want to go home.
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[15 Dec 2005|04:55pm] |
Ice day.
Not as exciting as I hoped.
I got up early and finished my shopping, with a few exceptions of course.
Since then I've been sitting around doing nothing but looking for ways to temerarily entertain myself.
Sigh
Gloomy day.
Makes me depressed.
Which could be why I've quarantined my self to the basement in an attempt to cheer up.
Bah!
I just want tomarow to come.
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[14 Dec 2005|11:01pm] |
Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspended like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing "everybody wake up (wake up) it's time to get down"
(everybody, everybody wake up its time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer...)
cause we keep them going constantly (...stands forever)
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
The hell out of this town
Find some conversation
The low fuel lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anything
I've got another 500, 'nother 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer...)
cause we keep them going constantly (...stands forever)
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
Eighteen forever (first kisses)
(your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation)
So we can stay like this forever (new stitches)
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
And we'll never miss a party (collar weekend)
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
cause we keep them going constantly (appearance ticket)
(you're just jealous cause I'm young and in love)
And we'll never have to listen (November to...)
(your stomach's filled up but you're starved for conversation)
to anyone about anything cause it's all been done (...remember)
(you're spending all your nights growing old in your bed)
and it's all been said (nightswimmers)
(and your tearin up your photos cause you wanna forget... it's over)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
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[14 Dec 2005|09:34pm] |
OMG IRON AND WINE FRIDAY NIGHT!!!
OMG I LEAVE FOR THE BEACH SATURDAY!!!
Umm, yeah.
I'm sort of excited about the next couple of weeks.
I'm using all of that to help block and hide shit that is bothering me.
Shit that makes me think far too much.
BAH!
Iron and Wine.
Beach.
Lots of time with Mel.
Yay.
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[12 Dec 2005|07:29pm] |
Well, my christmas shopping has officially bugun.
I'm hoping to finish it all tomarow, wednesday at the latest.
I got Mel's stuff done today.
This is good.
I started my mother; but she'll be easy to finish.
The rest of my family should be easy to get done.
Then, the hard shit, my niggas.
Some of my niggas will be easy.
Others will be tricky shit.
I'm in a happy sort of mood I think.
Sad that I don't know for sure if im happy or not.
*thinks*
Lets just role with the happy thing and leave it at that.
Woo!~
IRON AND WINE FRIDAY FOLLOWED BY THE MOTHER FUCKIN BEACH ON SATURDAY!
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